Every once in a while I become aware of just how broken I am as a result of the abuse and incest that was forced upon me by my parents. Most of the time I’m able to live my life without having to acknowledge the real damage that Harry did with his abuse and selfishness. But there are times when I can’t avoid looking at it any longer.
I’m reminded of it everytime I have to make a phone call, or if I want to take a shower, or if I want to go someplace wearing a dress. For most people these things are normal everyday occurrences, but not for me. For me they are fraught with danger, and as such I’ll do almost anything to avoid doing them. And they are just three examples of things that are difficult in my life because of what Harry did to me.
Now, don’t get me wrong. I don’t want to make it sound like I’m limping through life crippled to the point of complete incapacity. While my life is difficult, God is so marvelously good to me that it’s hard to describe. My needs are abundantly met, and I can always sense His presence with me. He’s always there to talk to, and I have His Word to turn to when I need it. Having God’s presence with me more than makes up for the difficulties that I live with as a result of Harry’s selfishness.
“And this is eternal life, that they may know You, the only true God, and Jesus Christ whom You have sent.” ~ John 17:3, NKJV.
Knowing that I have Someone I can trust completely means the world to me! Going from not being able to trust ANYONE to being able to trust One Person completely is a pretty amazing transformation if you ask me. And considering the One Person I’m trusting is God Almighty, Master of the Universe, Creator of All Things, that makes it even better.
God is not a man, so he does not lie. He is not human, so he does not change his mind. Has he ever spoken and failed to act? Has he ever promised and not carried it through? ~ Numbers 23:19, NLT.
This is beautiful thanks for writing it
It’s so good to hear from you, Kim! And I’m glad you liked this post. I enjoyed writing it. Knowing that it meant something to you means the world to me. It’s why I keep writing this blog, even if it does take me a long time to post updates at times.
I hope you’re doing well, and I hope your family is doing well. I think about you often, even if I don’t communicate it well.
My cats are as goofy as ever. I think if Solomon were human he would like bathroom jokes, and Gracie is his complete opposite, dainty and ladylike.
You know this reminds me of? Remember Michael Card’s song – Joy in the Journey? That what this brings to mind
That is a beautiful song! Thanks for pointing me to it. I can see where my post reminds you of Michael Card’s song.
Thank you for another encouraging message.
Hi Donna! I’m glad you liked it, and I’m especially glad you were encouraged by it! I’m praying for you! If there’s anything specific I can pray for, please let me know.